Hi there,
Fat person here, yep that may sound harsh but I am (feel like I have just entered fatties anonymous and declared it for the first time), so there I have taken the first step I AM FAT. How do I feel about that? Pretty sick (and not bulimic sick before you ask) just ashamed that I have let it get this bad. How come it happens gradually I mean why did I think it was OK to buy the next size up instead of stopping to think shouldn't I be considering loosing the weight so I don't have to move into the +size section. I have gained (and lost) weight since the birth of my child and no that isn't an excuse it just so happens thats when it started, so I can blah blah blah about how I focused more on being a mother than myself, and I just didn't find the time etc but the truth of it is I just didn't do anything about it......until now (7 years later !)
So now its time to take a stand, to fight the flab and discard this fat suit once and for all. OK so I have tried before but not with this kind of determination. I have gone to the weight loss classes (in person and on the net), I've been to the ladies only 30 minute work out places and I have got the dodgy slimming pills, and although they work it is only a temporary fix and I ended up putting it all back again and more. Plus what on earth do they put in these tablets anyway.
Its time - and to be quite honest with you I am scared I have to enter a....dare I say it GYM.....urrgghhh there I said it - my worst fear realised, I have to don sneakers, track pants and tops that apparently draw the sweat away from your body (oh great so I'm going to be sweating more than usual then....lovely). Just hope its the usual pit and back sweat rather than butt crack and boob sweat. So off to the shops I go at the weekend, hope they have my size is all I'm thinking - and betting on the shop assistant is half my age and 3/4 of my size and laughing through their retainers about the fat women trying to buy Lycra !!So I'll let you know how that one goes.
So a GYM you say, yep I have done it I have booked my consultation for Monday, its an all women GYM so don't have to worry about blokes being hypnotised by my wave of wobble while I try to "power on through", just hope the place isn't full of people who can run on the hamster wheel (sorry I mean treadmill) for an hour and not even break a sweat and have the audacity to wear those up your ass leotards....I mean come on I wear thongs (yes even at my size) but please to exercise in - it can't be good for you. But then again I hope there isn't fatties like me, cos then I'm one of them (which I know I am I just don't want to be faced with it...right) - OK so I'm vain, but I know I shouldn't be, because when I look in the mirror and smile it isn't just my mouth that's smiling there's one just below my belly button and it goes from one hip to the other, and its not so much of a smile but a sneer of a fatty with too much belly.
Well there it is my first blog, but I guess you're wondering - how fat is she, how much does she need to loose, well I won't know that until I get the 'health check' and assessment at the gym but by my guessing I need to loose around about 60lbs to be BMI, height to weight, easy on the eye, average size.
Oh and I know I shouldn't but I'm going to have a take out pizza on Friday along with some wine to toast in the new me....laughing at me are we - but you know you can't start a new healthy lifestyle without a blow out......right. OK, OK I know its wrong but along with the GYM I do need to eat better too, no crisps, takeout, fast-food and wine is off the menu (although I have started that already and don't touch a drop Sun-Thur).
I'm going to sign off now and get back to you once I have purchased my "Athletic Attire" (said with a snort of hilarity at the thought of how ridiculous I'm going to look)
Love Fatty
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